You are incredibly stupid for continuously hurting me. Don’t you see what you do? Whatever our association is?
But…
I am even more stupid for letting you.
I am stupid for wondering where you are.
I am stupid for needing to hear from you.
I am stupid for wanting you to never leave my life. (more…)
Or, the grrrrr continues.
Q: have you reached out and written and called people in an attempt to not isolate yourself socially, reach out, be friendly, etc.?
A: yes
Q: how has this worked out for you?
A: not at all (more…)
Today, Tuesday, November 20, 2007, I am pissed. REALLY PISSED.
Not pissed as in drunk, unfortunately. But Pissed Off. Disappointed. And, of course, feeling let down, abandoned, and hurt! That comes after or in conjunction with the anger. (I try to control all of these but today it’s really hard.) It all turns to more anger, disappointment, and a frustration of such an intense degree that there are no words. Except grunts, maybe. I am so pretty right now!
Sooo… PISSED. OFF. A. LOT. Not that that should surprise anyone.
Maybe pissed will come later. It’s been a really long time. And the vodka, it is near. Maybe a shot is in order…
Oh I am so distraught that I am about to finish Book Three (Eclipse) and have to wait forever for Book 4. I am trying to make Book 3 last as long as possible but I know I’ll finish this week. I just don’t want to say goodbye to these characters. I even ordered (yes, i am too old for this but i LOVE VAMPIRES — the non-cheesy ones, and yes I do watch “Moonlight.” Oh, and I wrote my honors English undergrad thesis on a comparison of the 19th c [Dracula] and 20th c. [anne rice first 2 books] vampire in literature, why the changes, societal stuff, etc.). Anyway, about the ordering. I ordered a tshirt with an apple on the front, one bite taken out of it, that says Bite Me. And on the back it says “Edward Cullen Fan Club.” Obsessed much? Yes, yes, yes. (From twilight teez, btw)
The comic strip “Mutts” even did a weekly series about Edward and Bella that was adorable and witty and fun to read. Here’s my favorite one:
I am not going to the Frames Dublin show totally alone! Yay!
